I went to the doctors and told her how I felt suicidal. I told her how I'd thought about using knives and painkillers to kill myself and how the other night I had an hour long crisis where I felt an overwhelming urge to do this. She didn't really help me at all apart from say that what I was going through was normal and that I seemed to have an okay control on myself, gave me a crisis number, booked me in for another appointment in 2 weeks and let me go get on with my life. Why do they campaign for suicidal people to go get help, if people aren't going to do anything to help them? I don't want a crisis number for when I feel like I'm about to kill myself. I want something done so that it doesn't get to the point where I'm about to kill myself. Now I just feel even worse that my attempt at getting help has failed.