I've come to the realization that I consider killing myself everyday. The reason I feel this way is due to the circumstances that life has thrown my way. I started college 7 years ago. During junior year, things started happening to me that I still to this day don't fully understand. I stopped going to class. I would sleep all day. I had no motivation to live, or even get out of bed. Needless to say, I was soon out of school. I took a break for about a year and a half, saving money to go back with intention of finishing. I finally went back to college and i stayed for three semesters. But during the third semester, I started having financial problems. This led to me being distacted, unable to support my schooling, and I started to do seld destructive behaviors to cope with the stress. By the middle of the semester, I just about gave up. Compounding the problem, because of the fact I left, my financial aid didn't go through, so I owed the school 3,000 dollars. I thought i could take another break and save up money, but the vicious cycle sets in, where I can't get a decent job with no school ,but I need money to go back to school. On top of all that, I still live with my parents, who have made it explicitly clear that if I'm not in school then I need to find another place to live. I have nowhere to go, and I currently don't make enough money to live on my own. All I have is a crappy job that pays slightly above minimum wage. So despite the fact I've been out of school for about a year now, I've been lying to my entire family, telling them that I'm still enrolled in school ( if for no other reason than the fact that I felt I had no choice). I've been trying to stall until I find a better job, with better pay and better hours, but I'm realizing that's not going to happen. I don't know if I can keep up this lie, and I don't have anyone to turn to. my social life isn't fairing any better. I only have 1 friend, and no girlfriend. I'm 25, and I've never been on a single date. I'm trying to get on the horse, but with the situation I'm currently in, how am I an attractive partner or potential companion to anyone? So I look in the mirror, and all I see is an overweight, unnattractive loser with no money, and no future. I'm in my 20s, and my life is in shambles, so what's the point? How can I go on? All this is too much to bear. What should I do?