Hello. I have diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia for several years ago. However I am medicated for this and few symptoms for the last years. No admittance to hospital. However I also have a rare neurological disorder called visual-snow. It causes me black and white spots like TV static in the visual field and disturbances in evenings when this is most notable. I can not walk at night because I can't see. I have suffered visual-snow for the last 3-4 years but progressed badly the last month because I drank some vodka with my brother and his friends and girlfriend. This caused a bad spike. I am also on government disability money. I have no friends for many years and this is causing big anxiety living alone and I have no future. I really can't cope and see no way out.