I'm still in the same place I've always been, apart from now, I'm getting closer to 30. I've still got no clue what I want to do or what kind of work I'd like to do etc. I've always found that I've never really cared about any of the jobs I've ever done. I don't know maybe there is part of me that still feels I need to get on with my life and do something, but because I've never known what exactly that is, I've just given up now. I'm tired of having to constantly search for it. I have very few options regarding the future. I have tried so many things but all in vain, mainly admin or office work but they have all ended mainly due to me not being focused and quitting. It's as if because I feel hard done by and frustrated and angry with other life issues, I don't want to contribute to society. Does that make sense? There's so much more I could say obviously but in conclusion what I'm trying to say is that I just feel like I don't care. I'm STUCK as I have been for many years, practically all my life you could say. I've had plenty of counselling/therapy and such like for many years now and it's really got me nowhere. I simply cannot just get on with life like people keep telling me to do. I am an angry, frustrated man, fed up with life and constantly thinking about how things have not worked out for me, finding myself in self pity etc. Right now I don't think I can even focus on even wanting to work because I am angry with being alive to be honest, I would rather be anyone but myself right now. I still live at home with parents, no real motivation to do much, have relationship and sexual issues which is making me even more frustrated and sick of living. I think it's best to continue to live on benefits and live and die alone. I hate life, wish I didn't have to live anymore. I would trade places with anyone right now. I've had suicidal feelings for many years now and even though I wish I was dead, I don't think I'm brave enough to actually go through with it.