I'm 26 and for about 4 years now I have pretty much lost the will to live. My family loves me and I have a 3 year old with another one on the way, and yet I feel like I'm trapped inside of a hole that I cannot get out of. I cry and cut myself atleast every other day. In the past two years I have become an alcoholic and a pill user (ecstasy and adderall) to try and cope with my sadness.. I went from being in the military and being someone to be proud of to being a loser who quits every job he gets because he can't find a reason to go.. I feel so selfish and it hurts because I can't help it..<Mod edit:Methods>.. I've tried praying and meditation but nothing works.. When I try to talk to someone they give me the same old "you can overcome" speech and that doesn't help.. I just hope that I can find happiness before I find the courage to pull the trigger..