I'm so bad, so worthless. There is no point me being alive. The emotional pain is too much. I will never be able to relate to people. I thought I could, but there is no hope. Its not a temporary problem I am dealing with. Me, my worthlessness, is terminal. I am useless, I don't belong here on this earth. I will never be loved. Noone will ever like me for who I am, because there is nothing to like. I want to give up. I have started hurting myself again, after nearly a year. But I feel like I don't care any more. Flashbacks, feeling I am permanently living in my past hell, through dreams, triggers, .. anything is a trigger, because I am always in my ugly, hateful body. I always see people who will never like me. I want to die. The pain of existing is too much.