I'm too tired to keep fighting. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Things never get better, never change no matter what I do. Life is just not worth it. I am suffering for nothing. I never belonged here and everyone has made sure I know that. I am so alone and that's fine most of the time, but not all the time. I have nothing, no one. Nothing to look forward to. No reason to live. I don't want to do it anymore. I just want to die. It's all I have to look forward to. Hopefully, I will find the courage to finally end it. Sorry this post is whiny and pathetic, but I needed to post it.