Why are you doing this to yourself?
Don’t you know that there are many girls out there thinking “I’ll never have a boyfriend…”? Of course you will have a girlfriend, sooner or later…so long as you have your heart open...
Also, you will get a job sooner or later so long as you do what is necessary for getting a job…use job agencies...start from somewhere reachable...the opportunities will appear...
Things always change. How you think and feel also changes...
Be a good friend to yourself. Be kind and gentle to yourself. Unconditionally accept and love yourself first so that others can join you and accept and love you, too…