I´m 24 and I can´t see a future for myself . Everyday is a marathon of mostly unpleasant feelings and I can´t take it anymore . I think of commiting suicide every day , but somehow I end up wanting to live . I have S.A.D. and it is really the most awful thing that I have to deal in my life . No one in my family understands me and to make things worse I don´t have any friends . I´m getting more and more desperate because I´m getting older . My life is empty . I´m tired of my life . I feel stupid and ridiculous most of the time . I´m conscious about my situation , but I still can´t change it .