I'm having a really bad day. I've had depression for 8 months now, well it was diagnosed 8 months ago. I think I've actually had it for 16 months. It started after my Dad died, but as I was still at university, I was so busy I couldn't stop to think about it, I couldn't think about what was happening to me because I didn't have time. But 8 months I finished uni as I couldn't cope with everything and now it's just completely consumed me. I feel like I'm driving through a tunnel. When my Dad died the tunnel got really dark but I could see the light at the end of it. I just had to get through uni and get a job and then each day the pain would ease. I'd still be in the tunnel but maybe there'd be lights on every so often and painted walls or something. But now I have no purpose in my life, it's been 8 months since I graduated with my BSc hons. and I can't find a job. No one wants to employ me. I have nothing to work towards. I have no direction anymore. It feels like the tunnel is completely black, it has no lights it just keeps going on and on and on and on and on. And there is no light at the end. Just darkness. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel trapped in the banalities of life.