It seems nothing really stops these feelings I guess. I'm back out of trouble. I've got a new start in school, im gonna graduate high school this year. We've got a steady income and a stable home now. Everything's working as well as I could hope but I still... I thought all these things would make things better. I thought being able to see my friends, doing well in school, having steady income and a place to live would make me happy enough to want to stick around. But I still dont and I dont know why. Everythings now as normal as I could have ever hoped. Nothings wrong compared to other people out there. I have no real problems and I hate myself for feeling this way with no justification unlike other people would have. I dont know how to be happy then if that wasnt it. I dont know what to do with myself and I know suicides the hardest, selfish, stupidest choice but I dont have a lot. I dont think id do it soon i just cant get it out of my head when i cant feel happy... and not know why.