I'm really sick of waking up at 12:30PM, taking the dog out and then watching daytime telly all afternoon, and then going out to meet my mum from work, watching more tv and then coming on the internet before I go to bed at 2AM. I keep waiting for something good to come along. I know I've got to get off my arse and do something, except waiting, but I just don't have the energy or patience. I recently decided I want to be a Vet Nurse, but then I saw you need 5 GCSE's, A-levels and then go into uni, or w/e. I would see about doing my GCSE's, but I'm too bloody stupid - I'd have no chance of passing, let alone A-levels! And I've applied for a few jobs, but they either don't get back or turn me down. After my asthma attack, I had a new found hope in life - but I've just gone downhill these past 2 weeks. I even quit smoking, and lasted for 5 days and I was so proud of myself - then I started again! What is wrong with me! It's my last session with my counsellor next week, and that's it until May, when I see a Child Psychologist. What, am I 10? Damn GP, I knew I shouldn't have gone to her for help. I just have no meaning to my life. Why am I here?? What's the point of my existance!? Sorry to go on, I just needed to get that out. I hope this is in the right place.