i need to find meaning in my life. but i dont know where it would be. if i had something to live for or a realization or somethingggg idk i just want to be happy i dont want to wake up and not want to breathe because i know today will be just like the day before i am tired of crying i always feel guilty about something and usually i have no reason to feel guilty at all how can i get out of this? where can i find something or someone that will make me believe in life and humanity again? wtf is the point?