I can't do it anymore. I cannot continue to give love to people. I get burned every single time. What I thought was my soulmate was nothing more than a using type thing. God, that hurts. I even sent him my crystal for his own well being. I am so down right now I can hardly hang on. I try, everyday to think of good things about myself but there ain't many. I want to be at peace. I can't deal with emotional turmoil and that is my life. Today was the first day in over a year that I did not speak to the person I believe to be my soulmate. We had a heated discusion last night and I really didn't have anything to say to him other than I love him. As I said, first time he has not sent me an email or called or sent me an IM. That makes me feel terrible. I am so fucked up in the head that I can't even function like a normal person would. I just don't have any left to give to anyone..even myself.