Tried calling a friend and they didn't pick up. Went to see a psychologist and scared her half to death with all the stuff that's happened to me in the past and recently. Called a suicide hotline and the guy reffered me to a rape/ sexual assult hotline. Called the rape/ sexual assult hotline and no one picked up. Tried talking to a GP and he told me to get over it and grow up basically. Tried talking to my parents and they can't deal and they just yell at me. I have no good friends I can turn to. I have offically run out of options. I don't know what else to do but end my life. I've tired meds but they make me feel sick. I've been counselled since I was 11 years old and obviously it hasn't made a difference since I am 19 now and still want to end my life. I honestly don't know why I am still here.