I've tried, really tried over the last couple of days to get some peace of mind and maybe have second thoughts. I have no time to myself anymore. no place to go and think. No solitude to make decisions. Last night I tried to sit out in the nice cool air of the night. Alone and peaceful and quiet. My damn cat had to sit at the door meowing his head off and woke my dayghter so guess who once again could get no time. Sorry to spout off about nonsense but it's the last of my thoughts and focus. I'm almost done getting rid of all the things I don't need around anymore. Plans are in place and once the last thing i need arrives in the mail I'll finally be all set. I thank all of you here who had kind words or thoughts. I give you all credit for trying to save the unsavable. I was wrong to come here though. I thought I wanted an outlet, but, I really didn't. I don't know what i was thinking. Usually you cry for help when you want it. I didn't and I'm sorry i took from all of you as well. Typical in my life to not think of how my actions would effect others. I'll be checking posts thru today. I hope tomorrow doesn't come at this point.