I enjoyed the weekend, with my nan. Putting up the tree, and the lights, going shopping, having a Subway..but I can't carry on anymore..it's like I live in two world's. My nans world is amazing, calm and like heaven and my family is violent and like hell. My parents don't trust me, after I took and overdose, and it is driving me mad! I can't keep hiding, and pretending to be fine, when I am hurting so so much. The teacher asks if I am ok and I say "Yes, I am fine" when inside I am crying and wanting to die. I have no hope, I know things will never get better, they have only got worse. I thought I could stop cutting, but no, I failed at that and it's got worse. I need to die to make everyone happier, I have even been told by my parents and teachers that it would make everything better...I can't fight, this is me ready to die. I have nothing, I am nothing. Sorry for wasting your time... I am nothing.