I keep going through the threads and posts but just can't "feel " the words any longer. I'm empty and can't help you any more. I can't even help myself. That was all I had left, the words and even they have betrayed me and left me all alone. The time I have chosen is closing in and I feel nothing. And for once that is a good thing! All that is left is thank you to those that tried to do for me what I couldn't do for myself.