It's not enough that I'm fat ugly and alone. The sleep apnea and diabetes aren't enough. I now get hidrenitis to accompany it all. I am everything I aways felt I was. I am this irresponsible piece of shit. I get it. I do. I earned this. Somehow. But I don't wanna play anymore. I just dont. I feel like I was never equipped with the skills to be here. I feel like I was always destined to be this piece of shit. I hate that my parents thought that they needed kids. I hate this world. I hate my life. I can't ever see the end of this. I can't keep feeling like this.