ure not supposed to talk about bad things u did here and even tho i didnt know what i did cus i was a baby it was still bad and a crime so thats why i get punished from everyone. if ure bad u go to hell anyway so im going there already so it doesnt matter how i get there. so im not staying here anymore. i dont want to be sad and afriad of sinning anymore and i want my dad to be ok so im going to write a letter to the social service people and ask them to help him after im gone. and i will tell them to tell my dad i forgive him for hurting me and i understand but it made me too sad and i missed my mum too even tho i never knew her like he did. and i will ask them to ask his forgiveness for me cus i know that killin yourself is a sin but i came here a sinner, i might as well leave as one.