I failed in every aspect of life. Everywhere I turn to I get thrown out of, everyone I turn to ends up leaving me. My anger is so much and so detailed that I can't even post about it here without getting an infraction, I am likely soon going to be banned from here. I failed at being a human, a social human, I am isolated and no one wants to be my friend, the constant rejection and humiliation from women reinforces my urge to kill myself, it has destroyed me from the inside out. I honestly have such a deep hatred for women that it is unbearable to not go one day without thinking evil thoughts. I know what I want to do is not likely to happen, so the only thing that I can do is off myself, that is possible. It wouldn't matter where I went to, the feelings on the inside will always be the same because the damage has been done. I am different, very different, I am a weirdo, an outcast, a loner, a loser, an ugly person, a stupid, person, an evil person, a pathetic piece of shit. With all that being said, I don't want to be here anymore. I don't even own a car so getting to the bridge to jump off without no one realizing it would be hard. I don't own a gun. I could get some rope... but I'd have to pick a good spot where I could hang myself, my brain right now is half functioning and half frozen so I can't really think clearly.