All I had was a little bit of hope that things would actually work my way, that I'd get another chance. Well, I'm not. They've gotten "serious". I have nothing left. I found the one oasis in a vast wasteland of white trash, and it's gone forever. I'm stuck in this wasteland with no means of escape, having to constantly watch that oasis be violated because I can't escape. I can't do it. There's nothing that can possibly happen to justify this pain. It's too much, it has to end.