no one believes me. they are all friends with him. they take his side. he wouldnt never do anything like that, they say. they think im crazy. im making it up. im being dramatic. im a liar. how can they think this when i still have flashbacks almost every night? when i am so paranoid that i have to make sure every door and window is locked, and if i hear a car at night i freak out. how can they say all of this when i am scared to death of him? when i have a mental breakdown just because he called me? (even though i never answer.) but no one believes me.... and i just keep wishing for death to come... i dont think this will ever end.... this is too much pain for me to handle.