im here so that i can feel like im trying. same reason why i do all the other useless things that are supposed to help depressed people...so that even if nothing works and i still end up killing myself, which i likely will, at least i can say i tried. at least i can say i tried to stick around and tried to work on me and tried to live life because life is beautiful even though everything about society and people especially females in my case is not. im 18 and single and want to die. why do girls expect men to do all the chasing. some of us are really damned shy. and why didnt they ever give a single f*** when i cried and cried and cried over facebook posts that basically were just rants about how lonely and desperate and suicidal and single i was. im not even ugly im actually pretty goodlooking. im just super quiet and have always sucked horribly at the whole getting a date thing. and have seemed to just always be cursed when it comes to attracting females. but its killing me. why dont girls care. im not expecting anyone on here to be any help. im not. but at least i can say im trying to prevent my suicide. and no i wont tell anyone to go away for saying their opinion or anything im not like that. but yeah. does no girl want a broken guy. im tired of bleeding and crying and hurting over someone who's not there. im tired of being told that i just 'need to get out of the house more.' or 'need to talk more.' or wtf ever. god just doesnt like me and neither do girls. im a pretty actualized soul. but with a right to feel lonely. and with a right to hate this stupid world. my moms dead my dad and friends are annoying and im starting college soon because i cant kill myself. not only will i not die..known from prior experience.... but i still have hope. that someday some chick will finally decide im not a piece of shit. i dont really know what people are like on here.......but its for the lulz.......just comment whatever you feel like saying i will read it and consider it so that i can feel like i tried.