no one cares

[lost_child]

My counsellor is off for weeks, already its been 2 weeks I told her things and then she went off, unplanned. I've no one left to talk too. people haven't been in contact for days, weeks, for although know I could be dead, but they don't care. It shows how important I am in this world, and how my death would go unnoticed. I told you, I've been proved right. I knew I was right, people kept saying people cared, but its clear no1 does. Well 2 years and 4 days after being taken to AnE alive. 2nite I hope that i will be in dead

 

[dazzle11215]

lost child, please do not do it. lean on us here until you are feeling a bit better. call samaritans. hang out in chat. you can make it one more night.

does your therapist work out of a center with other people? if so, call and tell them it's an emergency, that you can't wait until your therapist gets back and you need to talk to someone.

you are not alone in this, and you *will* get through it.

hang in there,

catherine

 

[Panther]

people might have forgotten or maybe just don't know what to say. I can certainly talk to you if you want. :hug: x

 

[lost_child]

There are other counsellors and I have 2 email addresses for people there, they have said they will hold me and realise its a distressing time, but I don't know if i can. I'm stupid.

I just don't know. I'm so confused, I'm hurting so much and it doesn't stop just gets worse and worse. I have nightmares all the time. and now I'm having flashbacks adn remember things and the abuse starting earlier then I first remembered. Life is just fallen apart adn I can't cope. no1 cares. no1

 

[dazzle11215]

you might be scared, but it's worth calling or emailing.

it's not true that nobody cares. we care. maybe more importantly, there's a tiny part of you that cares, that's why you're reaching out by posting. please take that next step and email the counsellors.

catherine

 

[lost_child]

I've emailed them but they won't be able to help me, I just waste they time. I'm a no1.

life of a child, stolen and broken
reminders of the pain, no day ever fun
lies & torture have taken their toll
all that's left is a slow bleeding of my soul

My soul is slowing dying
inside i'm crying
Anger, rage seems to be gone
nothing left I'm so withdrawn

I've no fight left to give
one day I HOPE your be able to forgive
for my actions that i'm about to follow
But life has just taken its final blow.

I'm calm, smiling,..life's great
no one could see how much I was hurting
words, signs..I tried..now its just too late
Inside I was crying, my soul just dying.

empty..void..nothing left but death

 

[A_pixie]

Maybe a doctor should be called you could explain it's an emergency cause you fear for your life...please, please, don't do it there are people who care, is there anybody you can think of to trust?

A piece of advice I was given when feeling suicidal was to go through my address book and consider how each and every contact would react upon news of my death. It really gave me a new perspective.

Please hang on..

 

[Panther]

I remember reading a bit of what's happened to you. Is there anything we can do to help? Is there anything on the internet that can help you? Big hugs.

 

[lost_child]

I've tried to contact someone. my phonebook has no friends and the family that are in it...don't care in fact snubbed me, walked out of my life years ago. I've tried sams before they made me feel like a child, just cause I sound young on the phone, i'm 28..and sound very young apprentyely. I' don't know what else to do. I don't want ot have to die i just can't live with memories, feeling like my insides are being ripped out, my heart crushed. my stomach empty. nothing left.

 

[type]

Wish I could say something to make you feel better. All I can say is please hang in there, you've just got to find hope that things will get better one day.

take care.

 

[Dave_N]

Please don't give up lost child. You've survived so much already. It shows that you're a strong person and have a strong will to survive. Hang in there hun. And people do care about you, even though sometimes it seems like they don't.