No one cares

[emotionalwreak12]

I have realised the painful truth that no one gives a flying fig about me. I could drop dead tomorrow and I honestly think not one person would miss me. I am socially retarded and I dodge social situations whenever I can so I have very few 'friends', and I use that term lightly. I spend a lot of my time online and I do care about people online and I do consider them friends but I find it incredibly hard to believe that they care about me. No one gives a flying fuck and the internet hurts more than it should. I'm in one of them moods where I feel like uninstalling all my messengers and I may well do that because instead of helping my pain sometimes it just increases it. Why am I such a failure? Why can't I even make online friends?!

 

[emotionalwreak12]

I thought posting would help but in fact it's made me feel worse. I will not bother you all again, and I don't mean that in a nasty way.

 

[TheBLA]

My only friend in the world right now is my little brother, I have no other online nor offline friends, I'm a bigger social retard than you I bet.

 

[emotionalwreak12]

I haven't seen my so-called friends for a looong time. Everyone has gone their separate ways and I never see them anymore, or hear from them which is why I even struggle to call them 'friends'. I feel most comfortable with the internet, I feel I can be myself but I suck. I must do because people don't want to know and I feel as though no one cares. I have uninstalled my messengers, I'm feeling too much pain at the moment. If by any spooky chance someone DOES want to contact me, even though I really don't think they would want to, they know how to get hold of me.

 

[emotionalwreak12]

After this post I really am going to leave this thread alone because I feel I'm getting on peoples nerves like normal. It's interesting because I thought if I was to not sign in I'd feel a bit more comfortable asking for support and such as I normally feel like I get on peoples nerves but now... I just feel like a normal pain in the ass. Anyway, I've had enough of being the person I am and dragging people into helping me. I do feel I should be alone and go though this by myself because I don't deserve others, and that is what I am going to do.