I have realised the painful truth that no one gives a flying fig about me. I could drop dead tomorrow and I honestly think not one person would miss me. I am socially retarded and I dodge social situations whenever I can so I have very few 'friends', and I use that term lightly. I spend a lot of my time online and I do care about people online and I do consider them friends but I find it incredibly hard to believe that they care about me. No one gives a flying fuck and the internet hurts more than it should. I'm in one of them moods where I feel like uninstalling all my messengers and I may well do that because instead of helping my pain sometimes it just increases it. Why am I such a failure? Why can't I even make online friends?!