i know this is going to sound so crazy but no-one i love has died and i count myself lucky for that but a part of me has a feeling that someone i loved terribly has left me and i can't pinpoint this. it hurts so bad. i've cut myself so much over this stranger and i don't know why. i've cried so much over them and i dont know who it is. i sound like such a nutcase. i've tried talking to my parents about it but they just laugh me off. what am i doing to cause this? am i the only one?