Its so easy for everyone to tell you just to pick yourself up and stop being depressed but they dont realize or no the hell that i go threw everyday. Just because everything look perfect from the outside doesn't mean it is on the inside. I have suffered from ptsd from sexual abuse and majoe depress since i was twelve yrs old when i was diagnosed. I was actually starting to deal with my depression for about three years and learn new coping skills to help. Yet i took another blow to my life. I lost my daughter on Jan.27,06 and ever since that day i have slipped into major depression that seems to rules my life. I found the light at the end of the darkness that consumed my life but this time it so hard to see the light. I just feel so empty inside and dont wont to do nothing. I feel like im slipping away from the life that i use to have with my family. For once i found happiness with being a mother to a 6yr old son and a wife. Once i lost my daughter all that went out the door. My sisters all tell me that depression is an excuse that people use to do nothing with themselves. For once i just wish they new how it feels to be sad all the time , or feels like no one cares, or even empty. I cant even eat because i have no appeteite or sleep now. Im on meds and nothing seems to help me. I often wonder why I have to go threw this everyday and not someone else. For once i wont to look forward to waking up. thanks for listening to me ramble on