Ive been suicidal for 3-4 years and I've only told one person I new personally. This person was my best buddy.I could tell her anything...except how I felt.It took me 2 years just to build the courage to tell her.Only to figure out she would never take me seriously.The first person I ever told didn't think much of it. That's where my self esteem started to crumble to nothing. When I first came to the forum a year or two after I refused to talk about why I was suicidal.Then finally I tried to talk to some people. One said,"you shouldn't be suicidal about that" Another said,"that's not a real reason" My self esteem is gone.I have none.will never come back. Depression Suicide All sky rocket in my life. After enough negative,bad responses I tend to never try again.The risk of being denied again would be to much.I would have a total breakdown. I picked the wrong people and now I will pay.My reason may be stupid,but it doesn't matter! I've guessed I'd live another 4 years...Maybe 6.