The anger and loneliness is getting the best of me. The jealousy, the hate. The constant rejection by people. Day in day out I am ignored by everyone. I ask for help but people refuse to talk to me. I need to be alone, I wouldn't have a choice anyway. I constantly reach out to people and get rejected every time. Every fuckin day the sun shines, people smile, people love, people live, and I am mocked and mocked and mocked, it is too much. I am tired of being shunned. I am so hurt that I can't even speak, I can't concentrate, I can't think rationally. I don't know what it means to human, I wonder if I could be human. If i could be accepted, loved, spoken to, treated kindly, treated like a human being. I can't fake happiness, I can't fake humour, I can't fake intelligence, I can't even fake kindness. I am so bitter and angry. I have nothing but fear and anxiety in me.