I am feeling incredibly stressed and under so much pressure to kill myself. I feel like i have absolutely no options left. I have been suicidal and planning my death for so long that it feels like fate, like something that has to happen and I cant keep putting it off. I cant leave the house, i cant get treatment and I have just run out of time. I cant even use my preffered method as I have run out of time and cant wait any longer. I am meant to goto a doctors appointent tomorrow and I simply cant handle it, I have agoraphobia and social anxiety and leaving the house is simply impossible. However I also cant not go to this appointment as it has already been delayed so many months and I will likely be kicked out of my parents house if I dont go. I have thought of going to a hospital or crisis centre but I am just so terrifed and dont think i can stomache it. There are just so many things that I need to do and I cant do any of them and I dont know how I am meant to get through another day.