Tried every therapy going, every medication going but nothing works. I'm just tired of the struggle, I wish I could rub myself out, as if I had never existed. Everything feels hollow as if I'm just going through the motions, I just don't like who I've become, don't know who I am. The only comfort I get is planning suicide attempts but don't have the guts to carry it out, how spineless. I wish I'd just go away.