No reason to live

[rojer]

I don't know why to live anymore.
I can't think of anything that makes me happy
friends,none family,useless sex,hopeless
All I do on my subway trip to school is think of something that makes me happy to find a reason to live.
Can't find even one yet.
Everything in life to me is either neutral or negative either I don't care about it or I hate it.
Living life without a purpose just living life just cause I am. Makes me sick everyday that I only live because the only thing holding me back is the fear of the pain of death.

I feel like just smoking six joints and slitting my throat where no one can find me.

 

[Insignificant]

i am so sorry to hear you're feeling so down right now. please continue to share here. and please by all means please take care of yourself.

 

[Darken]

I made a post very similar to yuors a while back. What keeps me alive is my mother and sisters who care aobut me I guess. i dont want to hurt them even if it means living till im 100. and to have fun and enjoy what ever i can no matter how little or insignificant it is. my life isnt oo hard tho too be honest, I dont have to work I just stay home and do whatever I want.