i really have no reason to feel this way. i come from a good family that loves and supports me, i have close friends that i can trust with anything. i'm pretty good with meeting girls. I'm just here . . . . I just feel so low . . . I'll drink so more whisky and watch some more movie and sit here at 4am wondering just what it is i'm going to do at 8 when i have to get up. fuck this is nothing but egotistical bullshit. why do i need to feel something when i feel nothing? why do i need to feel something at all . . . ?