Basically for no reason whatsoever i just feel like killing myself sometimes. Quite often really. I just have those short anxiety attacks when i feel like taking some particular measures to end my life. I dont really have anything to be depressed about, to be honest im doing quite well in my life this far. Ive been through some very bad episodes but never let anything get to my head. Still, the only way for me to cope with my everyday life is to set some high goals keep waking up every morning just so i can reach em. Right now my goal is to get an aerospace engineering degree and go build icbms for china or somethig (i actually finished my first year in top 17%). Drinking helps too, but i dont drink that often anymore. I have some good friends but i dont care much for anyone. I feel pretty good about myself though. So here, i got no good reasons to finish my life, but the only reason i keep on living is because i got shit to do tomorrow. If i fail im probably gona go for it after all. Thats not a very good motivation, innit?