I think that's what it is with me. I am always playing a character that is 'normal'. A normal guy, likes sports, likes girls, likes a beer. That is how I try to have others percieve me. And none of it is a lie - I like all those things. But deeper down I feel like a weirdo. I have strange opinions. I have strange compulsions. I have strange desires, strange insecurities, strange needs. This is the side I always hide, because showing any of it terrifies me .... and I think this is why I don't feel like I have any meaningful relationships - I am always holding back. Anyone else?