My head is pounding. All I want is sleep. I can't stay like this. I can't handle my mind. Scratches at my arms, the water in my head, pain in my chest. I Have To Make myself sleep, it's the only way I know. It's the only way I know how to make my own misery stop for a short time. Restless pounding. I want to go. It'd be so easy this time. I'm so tired. I'm so very tired. I deserve this all.