I hate not being able to sleep. I hate listening to myself think and repeat things over and over. I can't get it out I my head. I can't close my eyes without picturing some form of suicide. I keep tossing and turning and I just can't fall asleep. I don't want this day to continue onto tomorrow I just want a fresh start. Everything is just cloudy and I'm afraid to close my eyes. I'm anxious and over analyzing everything in my life. I just want it to stop. I just want to knock myself out and fall asleep and dream about something better. An alter reality making me actually want to be in a deep sleep instead of dreading or fearing what's to come when I close my eyes. I keep looking at the clock and time just keeps passing. It's 4am. I have class in 5 hrs and that is stessing me out even more. At this point I don't want to fall asleep because I'm afraid ill miss class. I hate these nights. I hateeee this feeling !