I dont want to go to sleep tonight. I've been afraid of sleep for several months now. Some nights are good though. Exhaustion wins. I've been sleeping on the couch. Its easier that way, too many bad memories in my bedroom. I tried to lay down earlier but I just shook and cried so I came back to the computer. Now I dont know what the hell I'm doing. I just want to burn that bed and burn that bedroom down.