It's been over 48 hours and I have had two seperate hours of sleep. I can't fall asleep. I lay there and that's it. No sleep. There is no escape from the pain inside my head. There feels like there is no way out. I just want it to be all over. There is no one there at 2am. Every one I know is sleeping. I want to sleep or go away or just be over. I just don't know.
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I don't know. I was raped yet again in December. I have been getting worse ever since. Now I am having great difficulties sleeping. I have been hallucinating for some time, both visual and auditory. Now that I have no rest, I'm exhausted. I don't have the strength to fight all of the bad thoughts in my head. I just want it to be over. They increased my meds, but it's not helping. I just lay there, and I can't sleep. Well I have slept a couple of hours, but it was here and there and not really restful. I'm in a lot of therapy, but it's like I'm at this point and I don't know if it's going to work anymore. I've been in therapy for so long for similar reasons. I just don't know if I have the faith to continue with it. I'm lost.
It's not worth it. It just doesnt make sense. None of this make sense. What is real, what is wrong, what is true? I don't know. I don't know. It's five am, and I don't know why I should see the dawn. It's crazy to live like this. It isn't life. It doesn't matter. I'm so tired. I just want to sleep. Please God end this.
I know what it feels like to go on very little sleep due to the flashbacks and other things your mind takes you through after something traumatic. Continue on with the therapy. Is it possible to get something to help you sleep? Sleep deprivation can deepen depression and make things feel even worse. It may take time to get yourself back to where you were before, but don't give up on it.
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