I don't even know why I'm writing this because it's no different than any of my other pointless threads. When I got rejected over two years ago, it was because I didn't show i had balls. She was right. Because if I did have balls, I would have killed myself by now instead of talking about wanting to die. This 15 year old in the area i live in killed himself a month or so ago, and while I wish that someone had intervened, I can't help but envy him for having the balls to do what I can't. I woke up today at 4:30 in the morning....I have no job or any purpose in life, so why did I wake up at this time? Why did I wake up at all? I can't see there being any hope in my life. Sorry for the waste of space.