I do have a therapist unfortunately he isn't really available 24/7...he does recommend I try and avoid but I seem to have lost that ability. It's funny you mentioned putting it in a box as I did for a long time, along with my emotions. It seems I have lost the key and everything is coming out at once, and no I'm not really prepared to deal with it, and it's been pretty unexpected, but it is what it is a d I feel like I have no choice but to go with it.