Feel so low right now. I close my eyes and there she is there, just can't free her from my mind. Seems like I'm refusing to let go. I was so sure she was my soul mate. Feel ill all the time and cant sleep. I know its me and ppl keep telling me it isnt, but it is! She's been so wonderful to me and cant believe I let her slip through my fingers. Its my fault and I have to pay the price and carry the cross.