I'm freaking out, after a terrible road trip I return with the revelation this relationship I'm in will never work, I have to get out. I have nowhere to go. I have been threatened by the landlord with an eviction for being late on rent, which I couldn't help because someone didnt pay me back, now I've awoken 4 hours late to work. I don't know what to do, I just want to at least try to kill myself so at least I have a reason for being late... I just... there's nothing I can do, my world is collapsing... best I just die first than be crushed by the falling debris.