Basically I'm in a situation where there are definitely only two choices. I'm not happy if I choose the first one and if I choose the second one, well, I'm not happy either. Not happy is a complete understatement actually. I'm completely miserable and suicide seems like the only solution. I'm just sick of feeling like this. Nothing's going to get better... I took the second option and I've been trying for months. I've been on antidepressants and I've really tried but I still feel just as bad and nothing works. Tried the first option again, the one I thought would make me happy, but no. Not properly anyway *sigh* I'm just so fed up. If I had the guts to do anything I would've done it already. I wish I did have the guts.