I really can't take this any more. Right now I'm stuck in an incredibly difficult space which I don't know how to get out of. I have no where else to run This all is too much for me. I've been trying to deal with my friend who is suicidal and overdosed a few days ago and I had to take her to hospital. I feel responsible for her. She tried to go to the hospital tonight but they sent her home!! She said she was going to overdose. I told her I'd come around, but I didn't. I couldn't cope with it. Now I'm worried she'll overdose again. I'm not coping at the moment, let alone having to cope with her things as well. I've been trying to get onto my counsellor for the last two days and I have to wait until Tuesday now. THat was kind of the last straw. I was holding off doing anything until I spoke to her and I thought that would've been tonight. I cannot wait until tuesday. I cannot go to the hospital because they'll send me home like my friend. I don't want to kill myself because it will kill my family, I am trying to do it in a way that may not look like suicide. Or I am about to write a long letter to them trying to explain some things. If they could just understand that this is something I'm doing for myself and no one else. It's something I never do. I'm sorry.