I don't have words for what I feel tonight.
I've had to do some very difficult things in the last few weeks mostly about ratting out child abuse. I know I did the right thing but it has such wide-reaching consequences. I keep telling myself that calling Child Welfare was right but right now I wonder if reporting the abuse was worth the destruction that the investigation into their family has caused. So many close friendships have suffered irreparable damage. They still don't know it was me. They keep blaming people who have no connection to me or my complaint. I made two accusations but there's a dozen others that other people have made since then. But they figure it was all made by one horrible person. They believe that Satan is persecuting them. Its just so screwed up. I did the right thing, didn't I? It was right to put the welfare of the kids ahead of all the adult relationships... I know that. But tonight I'm plagued by self-doubt.
I'm teetering on the edge of not being able to cope. My old way of coping was to cut myself and that's looking awfully appealing right now.
-Deedee
I've had to do some very difficult things in the last few weeks mostly about ratting out child abuse. I know I did the right thing but it has such wide-reaching consequences. I keep telling myself that calling Child Welfare was right but right now I wonder if reporting the abuse was worth the destruction that the investigation into their family has caused. So many close friendships have suffered irreparable damage. They still don't know it was me. They keep blaming people who have no connection to me or my complaint. I made two accusations but there's a dozen others that other people have made since then. But they figure it was all made by one horrible person. They believe that Satan is persecuting them. Its just so screwed up. I did the right thing, didn't I? It was right to put the welfare of the kids ahead of all the adult relationships... I know that. But tonight I'm plagued by self-doubt.
I'm teetering on the edge of not being able to cope. My old way of coping was to cut myself and that's looking awfully appealing right now.
-Deedee