As I said I have no zest for life anymore. I've always been an introvert and luckily I live on the countryside (cities makes me really super anxious). But this hasn't been a problem until now. Even though I'm not the social type I've never had any problems making friends. But now everything's much more complex. Now it feels like I'm better at making enemies than friends. I think it's the results of my insecurities. I think I look completely hideous. Can't look at mirrors without freaking out, it ruins my whole day. My ears stick out and makes me look in my opinion weird. The thing that drives me crazy is that both my mother, father, brother and my sister have average non protruding ears. So why did I get them? I know that I can do otoplasty. But it doesn't change genes. It feels selfish to my children in the future. They'll be in the same position as me right now. How will my future wife react to it as well? I don't want to pass my horrible genes so I've always stayed away from lots of girls even though they show interest. In fact it's when they show interest I back away. Basically I'm a celibat but I've also considered ending my life after school when I move out or when my parents and siblings get older. Do you have any ideas of what I can do? Should I consider otoplasty regardless of my thoughts? It will maybe make me happier in short term. Thanks in advance!