God sent a monster to live in my head. I have to get the monster out of my head. Why does God hate me? I didn't ask for this. I have to get it out. crawling consuming eating vomiting fucking killing me KILLING ME oh God it's eating me The beast. I have to keep the beast at bay. He's trying to eat my thoughts again. I hope that I can go to Heaven despite the beast that lives inside me. I want to go to Heaven so badly. It's not fair that the monster is damning me. I didn't want the monster. The demon is staying. I need exorcism but the pastor doesn't believe in the monster. I need help, I have to get rid of him. It's eating me and I'm going to go to hell if I don't get help.