I don't know really what i'm feeling. Sometimes i'm so happy but then i can become so depressed and even suicidal. I know there are people who really do care about me. My boyfriend is moving to New York in a couple months. Hes moving without me even though he wants me to go. I can't afford to go, and hes moving with his friend and with them together i just feel like a tag along. i know there just trying to get there career started. Why do I need to come along.. why can't my boyfriend understand i can't go? He just gets frustrated with me... annoyed and he starts yelling and we get in arguments. I'm scared to ask my mom to let me move back home with her and move out from my boyfriends house... but i use to be such a burden to her. i don't know what to do, or even where to live. i hate depending on other people.